Tag: rainbow pregnancy

Incompetent Cervix

Second Time Around

[youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xz4YQZ01Q_A&w=420&h=315] Registering the second time around isn't that exciting. Let's get something clear - I'm not pregnant, at least not yet. This is the first official cycle of trying and I'm currently on CD 6. I won't ovulate for another week or so. I do feel surprisingly confident this time around. I don't know if it's the meditation or false hope. I would like to believe I truly think I'll
Fertibella

Future Baby Mama…Soon?

It's about that time. To TTC. I'm currently on CD 9 and I'll start tracking my ovulation in a couple of days. Ideally, I would've already been pregnant with Rainbow Baby #2 and possibly, would've given birth. Life is funny that way. You have an idea of how you want things to go and oops, not quite. I'm excited. The more round preggo tummies I'm seeing, the more I want to be
Yoda

My Saving Grace

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aE1ED_9piMU   I'm going to be frank - I'm not looking forward to Mother's Day this year. Or any year, for that matter. You can't blame me. I was supposed to have a baby in 2012. Instead, I spent 2011 mourning two losses; one being a late-term loss (Ethan). Being celebrated on Mother's Day when I feel someone is missing is a bit skewed. I don't know if it'll ever get better, honestly.  I
Preparing for Yoda

Fancy

http://youtu.be/47-xxp02PFg I have spent a small fortune on this child so far. I'm not really into designer labels or fashions, though I occasionally splurge on a very nice handbag or jewelry. I think it's something I've inherited from my grandmother and mother. They've always had nice jewelry and things, neither believing in putting it on credit. They both figured if they really wanted something, they would save up to afford
Cerclage, Incompetent Cervix, Pregnancy

New Sensation

http://youtu.be/6jujG5X9iZsI had an appointment with my OB this past Friday. Yoda is looking great and measuring great. Still, no weight gain and my doctor doubts I'll gain any for the remainder of the pregnancy. I can still look down and see my feet for the time being. I had my glucose test on Friday as well and yeah...it was nice to drink the flat Fanta-like beverage for a few
Pregnancy Week by Week, Pregnant After a Late Loss, Pregnant After a Loss

I’m Lovin’ It – Week 30*

According to LMP, I'm 30 weeks. Of course, that's not the case. Nevertheless, let's check in on Mr. Yoda. According to babygaga.com: Woohoo! You can finally see the finish line now that you're in the final quarter of the race!!! Whether you felt like your pregnancy's been flying by or slower than a snail scaling Everest, you've arrived in your thirtieth week and your baby's cookin' beautifully! In animal news: the fine lanugo
Pregnancy, Pregnant After a Late Loss, Pregnant After a Loss

Show You the Way to Go

http://youtu.be/0WHmq1x_wuk One thing I've come to realize is that when you're pregnant after a (late) loss, people tend to forget that you went through childbirth with the previous pregnancy, if you were fortunate to experience such agony. Already, the comments of what I should expect are coming in from friends. Fact: I went through 13 hours of natural labor with Ethan, before I received an epidural. I know what childbirth feels like.
Cerclage, Ethan, Incompetent Cervix, Pregnancy, Pregnant After a Late Loss, Pregnant After a Loss

Against All Odds

http://youtu.be/wuvtoyVi7vY It gets easier.  It gets better. But does it really? Those are things I've said to myself. Those are things I've said to others. But I wonder...does grieving over your pregnancy, your child...does it ever get easier? Does it ever get better? This December, it'll be two years since Ethan went to Heaven and it sometimes feels it just happened yesterday. I often wonder what his personality would've been like. Would he have