Ethan died five years ago and this is something most people who follow me know. I haven’t been shy in my grief, and I make it a point to let everyone know I had a son before Bear. What a lot of people don’t know is that we haven’t purchased a grave marker for Ethan. … More Why Picking Out Your Son’s Grave Marker Really Sucks
The build-up to his birthday is always the hardest. This year has been incredibly difficult because having a preschooler is one more reminder of what could’ve been and what currently isn’t. I know it may sound weird and I don’t sound like I’m grateful for Bear, but I am. I thank God every day for … More Ethan
I’m five years out from my loss and honestly, I’m struggling to wonder if it’s truly gotten better. I’ll admit the first year really, truly fucking sucked. There’s no eloquent way of putting it. … More Does Painful Loss Really Get Any Easier Over Time?
Most parents are concerned about emotional and physical development when it comes to their children – when’s the right time to talk about the birds and the bees? How to handle menstruation concerns? How to deal with male puberty? Some parents take it a step further and try to map out their child’s financial future … More What Happens When Your Child Asks About Their Deceased Sibling?
I should feel excited. I am a mother. This is a holiday dedicated to me. I’ve been celebrating my mother for years and now, I can share a holiday with her that’s for us!
And yet, I don’t feel that way. Not even close. … More Why Mother’s Day is Still Difficult for Me