It's a bit late this week to make up for the post last week. Here's a shot of me:
And another shot:
How far along? 31 weeks, according to LMP.
Weight gain/loss? None. No weight gain at all entire pregnancy.
Symptoms: None really. No more nausea but I’m really monitoring how much I eat.
Mood: Very tired. Just tired.
Sleep: On a very weird schedule. My average bed time is 2 AM but I'm trying to go to
Category: Pregnancy
Though I'm well into my eighth month of pregnancy, we're still going by LMP until I give birth, whenever that is. Let's check to see how Yoda is doing now!
According to babygaga.com:
This week, your amazing growing baby is around 3 pounds and 17 inches tall.
With each added layer of baby fat, your baby's wrinkly raisin skin starts to look more and more like it will when they're born.
The heavy
http://youtu.be/-AphKUK8twg
The thing about being pregnant after a loss is dealing with anxiety. You're always wondering 'what if...?' and you're never quite comfortable being pregnant, no matter how far along you are. Unless you've had a late loss, unless you've had multiple miscarriages, unless you know the pain of pregnancy loss, you can't relate. You can't sympathize, you can't empathize, you simply can't. Being an angel mom is something no
http://youtu.be/6jujG5X9iZsI had an appointment with my OB this past Friday. Yoda is looking great and measuring great. Still, no weight gain and my doctor doubts I'll gain any for the remainder of the pregnancy. I can still look down and see my feet for the time being. I had my glucose test on Friday as well and yeah...it was nice to drink the flat Fanta-like beverage for a few
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4JkIs37a2JE
I read a recent article on slate.com, regarding how one woman plans to never post anything about her child online ever. EVER. If you've followed his blog recently, you know about my struggle to even post Yoda's picture for fear of public reaction, due to Ethan.
But never posting anything about Yoda...ever? Hmm...that seems to be a bit harsh. It also seems ridiculously unrealistic.
I should probably explain my stance before
It's Hump Day Bump Day! Let's gooooooooooooooo!
This week's HDBD post comes in the form of two photos:
You know, one of these days I will clean my bathroom mirror. This was taken Sunday.
This was taken Monday.
I'm showing the different pictures to show how different my shape is depending on what I wear.
How far along? 29 weeks according to LMP. Yoda, however, is measuring 32 weeks, which puts me in the eighth
Yoda is growing leaps and bounds. He's growing so much that my MFM is officially a little concerned at the possibility I might need to be induced before my due date. There'll be another blog post on that tomorrow. Let's check in to see how Yoda is doing now.
According to babygaga.com:
If you’ve been feeling weird little fluttering butterflies in your belly, it’s not just your run-of-the-mill pre-birth performance anxiety.
Actually,
http://youtu.be/0WHmq1x_wuk
One thing I've come to realize is that when you're pregnant after a (late) loss, people tend to forget that you went through childbirth with the previous pregnancy, if you were fortunate to experience such agony. Already, the comments of what I should expect are coming in from friends.
Fact: I went through 13 hours of natural labor with Ethan, before I received an epidural. I know what childbirth feels like.
Today is HDBD. I'm tired, y'all. It's been really hot in LA and no matter how much I run all of the fans and AC and lounge around in my skivvies, I still can't get cool enough. Maybe if I can somehow fit myself in the freezer, that might work.
You have to excuse the dirty mirror. I really haven't been in the mood to clean anything lately. I did
http://youtu.be/wuvtoyVi7vY
It gets easier.
It gets better.
But does it really?
Those are things I've said to myself. Those are things I've said to others. But I wonder...does grieving over your pregnancy, your child...does it ever get easier? Does it ever get better?
This December, it'll be two years since Ethan went to Heaven and it sometimes feels it just happened yesterday. I often wonder what his personality would've been like. Would he have