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M. and I are a rare couple. He's Ukrainian, I'm Black American. There are a lot of differences between us. There is a lot of common ground between us. Obviously, it works since we've been together for seven years, five married. We survived two notable miscarriages in one year, a stressful but very uneventful pregnancy with Bear, and trying to conceive our second rainbow baby. We mesh.
We also
Author: Crystal
Hi, I'm Crystal! Mother of 1 human, 3 cats, and a glorified housewife to a fantastic man. Let's have fun and enjoy life together!
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Okay, that song has nothing to do with the blog whatsoever. But hey, the kid's flow is pretty sick. (Parental discretion...he may look like a kid but his lyrics sure ain't!)
I'm not pregnant. How's that for an opening line?
After a week and a battery of tests, not to mention I started to spot already, it's pretty official I'm not pregnant. I have to admit, I'm still debating if
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Ugh, I hate the 2WW.
I'm going to keep it real. My willpower isn't great. It's actually pretty crappy when it comes to pregnancy testing. I'm pretty good at waiting for other things that I really want. But when I have several pregnancy tests that amount to maybe less than a dollar each...my willpower shrinks to nothing.
So I've tested...a lot. Maybe too much.
Yeah, negative. I think. Not sure.
I really
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Today is the King of Pop's birthday. Here's a rad fact - both of my kids' middle names - Michael - is in honor of him. True story! (Though I pronounce Bear's middle name as Mikhail. It sounds better than way, IMO.)
Creating a vlog channel is a little more difficult than I'd imagined.
I looked through some other vloggers, just to get an idea of what they do and
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The waiting game.
I remember years ago, when we were first trying to conceive, people kept saying how stressful the two week wait (2WW) was. Meh, I beg to differ. It's everything in preparation before the 2WW. Did I take the Fertibella today? We have to have sex tonight! Am I drinking enough green tea? Maybe I should've grabbed that pineapple and pomegranate juice from the store when I
I'm currently on CD 12 and we're doing the Sperm Meets Egg Plan. I found some old OPKs from years ago (I think they're still good) and I've been checking my CM, which has been egg white. I was a little surprised to see Mr. Happy Face early morning today. Not sure if it's the Fertibella or if my cycle has stopped being mad at me. My most recent period was
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Registering the second time around isn't that exciting.
Let's get something clear - I'm not pregnant, at least not yet. This is the first official cycle of trying and I'm currently on CD 6. I won't ovulate for another week or so. I do feel surprisingly confident this time around. I don't know if it's the meditation or false hope. I would like to believe I truly think I'll
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Dear Bear,
I don't know where you'll be in your life when you read this. You might be going to college. You might be graduating from college. You might be on your wedding day. You might have experienced the birth of your first child. You might have scored you first big contract. You might have lost everything and wonder why you even bothered to begin with. That's the beauty