Weird.
That's really all I can muster. It's weird. Not a bad weird. Definitely not a good weird. Not weird.
There's a hole within you that will never close. Sometimes it gets bigger and overwhelming. Sometimes it returns back to size. But it never closes. It never heals. It's just kinda...there.
I lost Ethan seven years ago and I had Bear five years ago. I still feel someone, something is missing from
Tag: pregnant
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Okay, that song has nothing to do with the blog whatsoever. But hey, the kid's flow is pretty sick. (Parental discretion...he may look like a kid but his lyrics sure ain't!)
I'm not pregnant. How's that for an opening line?
After a week and a battery of tests, not to mention I started to spot already, it's pretty official I'm not pregnant. I have to admit, I'm still debating if
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What a difference a year makes.
I'm typing this post with a semi-sleepy Yoda on my boob. I'm sure you wanted to know that but you can't deny I've been honest for this long so why hold back now?
A year ago, I found out I was pregnant and I remember I had a flurry of emotions go through me. The biggest emotion was relief. We were trying for a
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There is something innately unnatural about burying a child. Like it really goes against God's plan and all laws of nature.
This Friday marks the second angelversary of Ethan going to heaven. I can vividly recall that entire day - going into labor at 2:30 in the morning, and fighting the labor the entire day until 5:30 that night when Ethan appeared on his own. It was then I learned
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Let's see it's been about three weeks since I've last updated. Well, a lot has happened since then. Namely this:
To fully tell the story, I have to backtrack a little so bear with me here.
Saturday, November 9
Over the weekend, I saw my OB and had a special trip to Labor & Delivery (L&D) for a NST since my blood pressure was becoming alarmingly high, mix in with a little
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Scream
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This kid is stubborn.
So it's been almost two weeks since my cerclage was removed and well, I'm still very much pregnant. It wasn't too bad except for when I suddenly fell sick. I didn't think it was a big deal but apparently my OB did. I saw him today and he checked me. The good news: Yoda is still locked and loaded. The bad news: He's not low enough
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Future Baby Mama
For those wondering, Future Baby Mama is the title of a Prince song. I love Prince. Have you ever seen him perform in concert? Ah-mazing! You really need to go check him out sometime in this lifetime.
It's Hump Day, Bump Day...let's goooooooooo!
How far along? 38 weeks, according to LMP.
Weight gain/loss? None. No weight gain at all entire pregnancy.
Symptoms: A ton of Braxton-Hicks. A ton. They tend to occur at night
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So much to do and so little time...
Or maybe a lot of time....who knows at this point?
I started researching babysitters/caretakers. Since I'm a writer, I plan to take a few weeks "off" to adjust to motherhood, but plan to be back in the swing of things come January. My situation is a bit different. Technically speaking I'm a SAHM (stay at-hom mom) but reality speaking, I'm not. I bring
Yep. Still preggo. Just waiting for Yoda bear to choose his birthdate. As I wait, let's check to see how he's doing.
According to babygaga.com:
Stuck in a holding pattern
The final fat details are being rounded off before your rocket-baby's big launch onto planet earth and into your arms.
For one, your adorable poop-factory's meconium stockpile is growing (are you ready for that historical first tarry black poo?) as their baby fat
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Superwoman
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I'm sure I used that title before.
Today I had my cerclage removed. It was an eventful day. Let's count the struggles...
My MFM's office usually calls the day before an appointment to confirm. I didn't get receive a call yesterday but I didn't pay too much attention to it and just thought it was an oversight. Heh. Note to everyone - if a doctor's office usually calls to remind you