Tag: cerclage

Ethan, Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness

Does Painful Loss Really Get Any Easier Over Time?

October marks Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month and every October for the past few years, I've dedicated the entire month to posting about my experiences with loss and helping other people in similar situations. As I'm preparing for the upcoming month, which is also my birthday month, I'm constantly reminded of fall. You see, I used to love fall and I still do in some ways. I mean, hello,
Incompetent Cervix

Second Time Around

[youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xz4YQZ01Q_A&w=420&h=315] Registering the second time around isn't that exciting. Let's get something clear - I'm not pregnant, at least not yet. This is the first official cycle of trying and I'm currently on CD 6. I won't ovulate for another week or so. I do feel surprisingly confident this time around. I don't know if it's the meditation or false hope. I would like to believe I truly think I'll
Pregnancy

So it’s been a long while.

A really long time. Like I think this blog was in blogging purgatory, not quite hell but far from heaven. Anyhoo, I'm going to dust off this blog and restart it again. Instead of playing catch up, I'll just start afresh. I'm going to talk about life with a rambunctious toddler, that SAHM thing I'm still getting used to (though I consider myself a WAHM), and my apprehension of going through another
Cerclage, Ethan, Incompetent Cervix, Pregnancy, Pregnant After a Late Loss, Pregnant After a Loss

My Saving Grace

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aE1ED_9piMU&w=420&h=315] There is something innately unnatural about burying a child. Like it really goes against God's plan and all laws of nature. This Friday marks the second angelversary of Ethan going to heaven. I can vividly recall that entire day - going into labor at 2:30 in the morning, and fighting the labor the entire day until 5:30 that night when Ethan appeared on his own. It was then I learned
Cerclage, Incompetent Cervix, Pregnancy, Pregnant After a Late Loss, Pregnant After a Loss, Preparing for Yoda

Scream

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0P4A1K4lXDo&w=420&h=315] This kid is stubborn. So it's been almost two weeks since my cerclage was removed and well, I'm still very much pregnant. It wasn't too bad except for when I suddenly fell sick. I didn't think it was a big deal but apparently my OB did. I saw him today and he checked me. The good news: Yoda is still locked and loaded. The bad news: He's not low enough
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Superwoman

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-AphKUK8twg&w=420&h=315] I'm sure I used that title before. Today I had my cerclage removed. It was an eventful day. Let's count the struggles... My MFM's office usually calls the day before an appointment to confirm. I didn't get receive a call yesterday but I didn't pay too much attention to it and just thought it was an oversight. Heh. Note to everyone - if a doctor's office usually calls to remind you
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Outstanding

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rSLGFL3Xa30&w=420&h=315] Tomorrow is the big day. The day I get my cerclage removed. It's cray-cray to think that back in May, I posted about how nervous I was to get the cerclage implanted. Then I posted about how my recovery was going. Now I'm posting on the eve of its removal. I never thought I would make it this far. Not that I was expecting the same thing that happened to Ethan to
Cerclage, Incompetent Cervix, Pregnancy, Pregnant After a Late Loss, Pregnant After a Loss, Preparing for Yoda

Technologic

http://youtu.be/UoPplpBPQxQ We saw our MFM this past Friday. I also received another NST. Yoda bear is doing fabulous and great! We got a great pic of him when he wasn't trying to cover his face with an arm. He officially has Mommy's lips. Oh dear. My son is going to be a heartbreaker. I need to get out the shovels and shotguns. Forget daddies being protective of their little girls;
Cerclage, Incompetent Cervix, Pregnancy

New Sensation

http://youtu.be/6jujG5X9iZsI had an appointment with my OB this past Friday. Yoda is looking great and measuring great. Still, no weight gain and my doctor doubts I'll gain any for the remainder of the pregnancy. I can still look down and see my feet for the time being. I had my glucose test on Friday as well and yeah...it was nice to drink the flat Fanta-like beverage for a few
Cerclage, Ethan, Incompetent Cervix, Pregnancy, Pregnant After a Late Loss, Pregnant After a Loss

Against All Odds

http://youtu.be/wuvtoyVi7vY It gets easier.  It gets better. But does it really? Those are things I've said to myself. Those are things I've said to others. But I wonder...does grieving over your pregnancy, your child...does it ever get easier? Does it ever get better? This December, it'll be two years since Ethan went to Heaven and it sometimes feels it just happened yesterday. I often wonder what his personality would've been like. Would he have