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I’m Lovin’ It – Yoda at Week 17

Yoda is 17 weeks today (well, yesterday). Let's check on his progress! According to babygaga.com: Don't look now, but... your baby is EVEN bigger, cuter, AND smarter than last week! Yes ma'am, your fantastic little bean stalk has added yet another half inch to their overall height - making them nearly half a foot long! Their little limbs have nearly reached their proper proportions and will continue to grow evenly with the rest
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I’m Lovin’ It – Yoda at Week 16

Let's check Yoda's progress this week! According to babygaga.com: Over the past three weeks your magical-gro baby has managed to add on yet another 2 full inches of length (totaling about 4.5 inches) and now weighs a whopping 3.5 ounces! Guess what? Your little lollipop is not so bobble-headed anymore! Yep, your baby's head-to-body ratio is starting to even out, as the rest of their body - including their arms and legs (the
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Secret

http://youtu.be/EPHUZenprKc The interesting thing about keeping a secret is wondering how long you can keep it for before either: 1) someone finds out, or 2) you explode and you have to share it with someone. Because of our late loss with Ethan, M and I decided to keep my pregnancy with Yoda a secret and not reveal until the birth. Now, it's not to say no one knows; actually, it's the contrary. A
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Body and Soul

http://youtu.be/goBREseotZE So yesterday was the big surgery. I got my cerclage. Let's see where to begin. I arrived at the hospital with Maks around 7 AM. After filling out the necessary 'Oh by the way, you have a real chance of dying so we need your signature so you're aware of that fact' paperwork, they had a doppler on my tummy to check Yoda's heartbeat. Once it was found and he
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Don’t Stop Believin’

http://youtu.be/rfUYuIVbFg0 I really don't like Journey but the song fits this blog post. Tomorrow is the big day. Tomorrow I finally get my cerclage. To be honest, I really don't want to get it. I really don't want to go to the hospital. But I know if I want Yoda to bake and most importantly, I want to meet him/her in November, it's a necessary procedure. I'm nervous. I'm scared. What if it
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Got To Be Real

http://youtu.be/EoXvDleWJ5U Today I scheduled my cerclage for next week. I have to go in for pre-op next Wednesday and be at the hospital for the cerclage in the wee hours on Saturday morning. http://youtu.be/Br2_22e2RoU It made me realize how serious this is. This isn't a typical procedure. This isn't a 'Oh, it's not big deal.' This affects me. This affects Yoda. This affects everything.  I am nervous, not going to lie. I've been looking
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Angel of Mine

http://youtu.be/3eOuK-pYhy4 Yesterday, I had my NT scan to check to see if Yoda is doing alright. For those who don't know what a NT scan is, just click this link and it'll tell you everything you need to know. So, we had a very eventful trip on the way to the doctor's. I would rather not go into details about what happened but let's just say someone's getting fired. Anyhoo, we
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One Sweet Day

http://youtu.be/UXxRyNvTPr8   Every month on the 13th, I take a moment to reflect. If I can't spend the day alone, I usually find a quiet area to just decompress and reflect: where I have been, where I am, where I am going. Ethan was born on December 13, 2011. That date is permanently tattooed on my brain. It's been 17 months since he went to Heaven and I've thought about Ethan more during
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Bittersweet Symphony

http://youtu.be/1lyu1KKwC74 Mother's Day has a new meaning for me. Not necessarily a happy one. Last year, it was supposed to be my first Mother's Day with a newborn. That didn't happen. Instead, it was my first Mother's Day and I didn't have a baby to show for it. I vividly recall I spent my day in hiding, away from phone and any social media. I didn't want to be flooded with