Weird.
That's really all I can muster. It's weird. Not a bad weird. Definitely not a good weird. Not weird.
There's a hole within you that will never close. Sometimes it gets bigger and overwhelming. Sometimes it returns back to size. But it never closes. It never heals. It's just kinda...there.
I lost Ethan seven years ago and I had Bear five years ago. I still feel someone, something is missing from
Tag: pregnancy
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It's funny when you become an expectant parent.*
There is just so....much...shit...to choose from. Really, there is.
And every company is like a drug dealer...'Hey baby...you know want this high chair. It'll make you feel real good.'
So, today's post is about the hits and misses of things we had purchased or used over the past two years. If I can save you a bit of heartache (and money!), I've done
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Okay, that song has nothing to do with the blog whatsoever. But hey, the kid's flow is pretty sick. (Parental discretion...he may look like a kid but his lyrics sure ain't!)
I'm not pregnant. How's that for an opening line?
After a week and a battery of tests, not to mention I started to spot already, it's pretty official I'm not pregnant. I have to admit, I'm still debating if
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What a difference a year makes.
I'm typing this post with a semi-sleepy Yoda on my boob. I'm sure you wanted to know that but you can't deny I've been honest for this long so why hold back now?
A year ago, I found out I was pregnant and I remember I had a flurry of emotions go through me. The biggest emotion was relief. We were trying for a
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There is something innately unnatural about burying a child. Like it really goes against God's plan and all laws of nature.
This Friday marks the second angelversary of Ethan going to heaven. I can vividly recall that entire day - going into labor at 2:30 in the morning, and fighting the labor the entire day until 5:30 that night when Ethan appeared on his own. It was then I learned
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Let's see it's been about three weeks since I've last updated. Well, a lot has happened since then. Namely this:
To fully tell the story, I have to backtrack a little so bear with me here.
Saturday, November 9
Over the weekend, I saw my OB and had a special trip to Labor & Delivery (L&D) for a NST since my blood pressure was becoming alarmingly high, mix in with a little
Cerclage, Incompetent Cervix, Pregnancy, Pregnant After a Late Loss, Pregnant After a Loss, Preparing for Yoda
Scream
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This kid is stubborn.
So it's been almost two weeks since my cerclage was removed and well, I'm still very much pregnant. It wasn't too bad except for when I suddenly fell sick. I didn't think it was a big deal but apparently my OB did. I saw him today and he checked me. The good news: Yoda is still locked and loaded. The bad news: He's not low enough
Pregnancy, Pregnancy Week by Week, Pregnant After a Late Loss, Pregnant After a Loss, Preparing for Yoda
Future Baby Mama
For those wondering, Future Baby Mama is the title of a Prince song. I love Prince. Have you ever seen him perform in concert? Ah-mazing! You really need to go check him out sometime in this lifetime.
It's Hump Day, Bump Day...let's goooooooooo!
How far along? 38 weeks, according to LMP.
Weight gain/loss? None. No weight gain at all entire pregnancy.
Symptoms: A ton of Braxton-Hicks. A ton. They tend to occur at night
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So much to do and so little time...
Or maybe a lot of time....who knows at this point?
I started researching babysitters/caretakers. Since I'm a writer, I plan to take a few weeks "off" to adjust to motherhood, but plan to be back in the swing of things come January. My situation is a bit different. Technically speaking I'm a SAHM (stay at-hom mom) but reality speaking, I'm not. I bring
Yep. Still preggo. Just waiting for Yoda bear to choose his birthdate. As I wait, let's check to see how he's doing.
According to babygaga.com:
Stuck in a holding pattern
The final fat details are being rounded off before your rocket-baby's big launch onto planet earth and into your arms.
For one, your adorable poop-factory's meconium stockpile is growing (are you ready for that historical first tarry black poo?) as their baby fat