Ethan

For Ethan

  I loved you then, I love you now, and I'll love you forever. I can't wait until we'll reunite in heaven. Until then, please keep watching over me, your Daddy, and your little brother, Bo.
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My Saving Grace

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aE1ED_9piMU&w=420&h=315] There is something innately unnatural about burying a child. Like it really goes against God's plan and all laws of nature. This Friday marks the second angelversary of Ethan going to heaven. I can vividly recall that entire day - going into labor at 2:30 in the morning, and fighting the labor the entire day until 5:30 that night when Ethan appeared on his own. It was then I learned
Pregnancy

Welcome to the Jungle

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o1tj2zJ2Wvg&w=420&h=315] Woe is me.  Eh, not really. Bo is just a little over three weeks old now and I've learned quite a bit since his birthday: When people say, 'sleep when the baby sleeps', that's damn good advice. I've questioned if being a mother was really in the cards for me. I've done it a few times, honestly. Trusting my husband with our son is a challenge. I have to keep reminding myself that yes,
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It’s Been Awhile

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K2NGe9mLAEc&w=420&h=315] Let's see it's been about three weeks since I've last updated. Well, a lot has happened since then. Namely this: To fully tell the story, I have to backtrack a little so bear with me here. Saturday, November 9 Over the weekend, I saw my OB and had a special trip to Labor & Delivery (L&D) for a NST since my blood pressure was becoming alarmingly high, mix in with a little
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Scream

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0P4A1K4lXDo&w=420&h=315] This kid is stubborn. So it's been almost two weeks since my cerclage was removed and well, I'm still very much pregnant. It wasn't too bad except for when I suddenly fell sick. I didn't think it was a big deal but apparently my OB did. I saw him today and he checked me. The good news: Yoda is still locked and loaded. The bad news: He's not low enough
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Future Baby Mama

For those wondering, Future Baby Mama is the title of a Prince song. I love Prince. Have you ever seen him perform in concert? Ah-mazing! You really need to go check him out sometime in this lifetime. It's Hump Day, Bump Day...let's goooooooooo!   How far along? 38 weeks, according to LMP. Weight gain/loss?  None. No weight gain at all entire pregnancy. Symptoms: A ton of Braxton-Hicks. A ton. They tend to occur at night
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Rock the Casbah

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bJ9r8LMU9bQ&w=420&h=315] So much to do and so little time... Or maybe a lot of time....who knows at this point? I started researching babysitters/caretakers. Since I'm a writer, I plan to take a few weeks "off" to adjust to motherhood, but plan to be back in the swing of things come January. My situation is a bit different. Technically speaking I'm a SAHM (stay at-hom mom) but reality speaking, I'm not. I bring
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I’m Lovin’ It – Yoda at Week 38*

Yep. Still preggo. Just waiting for Yoda bear to choose his birthdate.  As I wait, let's check to see how he's doing. According to babygaga.com: Stuck in a holding pattern The final fat details are being rounded off before your rocket-baby's big launch onto planet earth and into your arms. For one, your adorable poop-factory's meconium stockpile is growing (are you ready for that historical first tarry black poo?) as their baby fat
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Superwoman

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-AphKUK8twg&w=420&h=315] I'm sure I used that title before. Today I had my cerclage removed. It was an eventful day. Let's count the struggles... My MFM's office usually calls the day before an appointment to confirm. I didn't get receive a call yesterday but I didn't pay too much attention to it and just thought it was an oversight. Heh. Note to everyone - if a doctor's office usually calls to remind you
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Outstanding

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rSLGFL3Xa30&w=420&h=315] Tomorrow is the big day. The day I get my cerclage removed. It's cray-cray to think that back in May, I posted about how nervous I was to get the cerclage implanted. Then I posted about how my recovery was going. Now I'm posting on the eve of its removal. I never thought I would make it this far. Not that I was expecting the same thing that happened to Ethan to