Ethan

For Ethan

My Dearest Ethan, Not a day that goes by when I don’t think about you. You were originally scheduled to arrive in April 2012 but you made your appearance on December 13, 2011. It was the most wonderful two hours of my life and I will forever cherish your birthday. I often wonder what type of toddler you would be right now. Would you be like your little brother who is
Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness: How to Honor Your Angel

October marks Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness (PAIL) month. Over the course of this month, I’ll feature a series of posts dedicated to this month. It’s a bittersweet month for me. Sweet because it’s my birthday month, bitter because I’m reminded of my lost babies (not that I ever forget them). This marks the final post in the PAIL series for this month. I'm going to talk about the different
Meet the Blussians, Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness

Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness: How to Cope with Sudden Loss

October marks Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. Over the course of this month, I’ll feature a series of posts dedicated to this month. It’s a bittersweet month for me. Sweet because it’s my birthday month, bitter because I’m reminded of my lost babies (not that I ever forget them). Today, we'll talk about how to cope with sudden pregnancy and infant loss. While there are different ways to cope,
Meet the Blussians, Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness

Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness #2: What NOT to Say After a Miscarriage

October marks Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. Over the course of this month, I’ll feature a series of posts dedicated to this month. It’s a bittersweet month for me. Sweet because it’s my birthday month, bitter because I’m reminded of my lost babies (not that I ever forget them). In continuing Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness posts, I'm going to talk about what NOT to say when a woman
Ethan, Meet the Blussians, Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness #1: Why Dead Babies are Still Taboo

October marks Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. Over the course of this month, I'll feature a series of posts dedicated to this month. It's a bittersweet month for me. Sweet because it's my birthday month, bitter because I'm reminded of my lost babies (not that I ever forget them). Pregnancy and infant loss is a taboo subject because let's face it, no one likes to talk or think about
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As

http://youtu.be/KWhMyOs0pCQ   School has officially started, pretty much across America. A lot of kids are either returning to their schools, starting a brand-new one, or entering the final year at the one they’re at. A very exciting time. I remember being excited it was my last year in fifth, eighth, twelfth years and my senior year at college. Earlier, one of my April moms posted a picture of her daughter leaving for
Ethan

Tears Dry On Their Own

http://youtu.be/ojdbDYahiCQ Lately, the topic of posting pictures of deceased babies on social media has gained a bit of traction. There seems to be two sides - those who believe the parents have every right to post whatever they want, honoring their child and those who believe something so private shouldn't be posted on any type of social media. It all stems from this recent news story. *WARNING: there are graphic images
Ethan

Doing Just Fine

[youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Koz393gAwjQ&w=560&h=315] First grandchild. Seventh grandchild. First son. That is what I keep hearing since Bo's birth. Now, I do refer to Bo as my first son just because I don't want to keep explaining Ethan, especially to strangers. Unless you're a bereaved parent, you won't be able to understand the feelings of sympathy pity you get. They mouth a silent, 'I'm so sorry' and then you get "the treatment." The handling of your poor
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My Saving Grace

[youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aE1ED_9piMU&w=420&h=315] There is something innately unnatural about burying a child. Like it really goes against God's plan and all laws of nature. This Friday marks the second angelversary of Ethan going to heaven. I can vividly recall that entire day - going into labor at 2:30 in the morning, and fighting the labor the entire day until 5:30 that night when Ethan appeared on his own. It was then I learned
Ethan

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness

Normally I would have songs as blog posts titles but today is just too important. Tonight, as I've done for the last two years, I'll light a candle in honor of my angels, jellybean (4w6d loss) and Ethan (22w2d loss).     It saddens me how society is so accepting to talk about other forms of loss such as cancer, but no one wants to talk about pregnancy loss. Many women have