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Today, we met with our acupuncturist, Novella. She specializes in pretty much everything: stress-relief, weight-loss, back pain, fertility, and pregnancy. The last time we saw her, we were trying to get pregnant. Now we’ll keep seeing her since we’re pregnant.

My main purpose of going to acupuncture is just to relax. Being pregnant after a loss is not fun. Being pregnant after a late loss really isn’t fun. I’m okay for the most part but every so often, I become really anxious and just uptight. I can honestly say my worry has transferred from having a miscarriage to whether the cerclage I’m going to get in a few weeks is going to hold.

I spoke to Novella about my concerns and worries. Then she tried new acu-points (is that a word? If not, I just made it up for this) specifically for me and the pregnancy. I had those little needles in my feet, in my ears, and in my forehead. I think I had a few on my tummy and arms. I can tell you it worked like a charm! I fell asleep on the table, several times. Then I had good visualizations. I saw I was giving birth. I saw the baby coming out of the birth canal. I saw me holding Yoda. Then I felt better. All better!

Acupuncture Needles Sticking Out from Feet
This reminds me I need to give myself a pedicure.

Maks got acupuncture as well as cupping. I think I’m going to try cupping sometime when I’m not pregnant since I need to lay flat on my stomach. If you’re curious about cupping, check this out:

It looks painful but it really isn’t. It’s relieving the stagnation and moving the qi around the body so you’re more relaxed.

And when the cups are removed, his back kinda looks like this:

Clearly my husband doesn’t look like a slim woman swimmer but you get the point…

We’re going continue going to acupuncture for the remainder of the pregnancy because it just does wonders for both of us. Yay for a happy foxxy! ­čÖé


TTC unsolicited advice

For those who are still trying, I’ll tell you what I did. Keep in mind, it wasn’t just one solid thing. If anything, it was a perfect storm:

  • Acupuncture (it really calmed down my nerves and made me focus on things that weren’t pregnancy/baby-related)
  • Exercising daily (Again, just to calm my nerves and besides, I wanted to look and feel better)
  • More fruits and veggies and a lot of water to flush out my system.
  • Lots of sex (of course!)
  • Lots of Prayer
  • Pre-Seed
  • Fertibella (I have to note on the Fertibella: I’m not sure if it helped or not. I did start taking it in January and I found out I was pregnant, with still a week to go in my second bottle, so take this news with a grain of salt. I can’t say for sure it did work; I can’t say for sure it didn’t work.)

For those still trying, please don’t give up hope. I’ve been in despair, I’ve been angry, I’ve been numb. Even just a short while ago, I wondered, ‘Maybe it’s not meant for me to be a mother again.’ I’ve had an early miscarriage and a late loss, so I know the feelings all too well. We were about to start setting up an appointment to do IUI and then IVF when we found out we got pregnant on our own. So please to all of my TTC ladies, do not give up.

And so it begins…

After one year of trying, taking a break, trying again, doing away with the tempting and just said, ‘eff it’, I’m pregnant!

A little background on me: I’m foxxy. You can call me foxxy. I started my TTC journey in December 2010. We suffered a miscarriage in April 2011 and fell pregnant again in July 2011. Our son, Ethan, was born prematurely at 22 weeks gestation on December 13, 2011 due to┬áinsufficient/incompetent cervix.

While we mourned the lost of our son, we always wanted to try again. It was very tough seeing everyone around us getting pregnant and expanding their families when we were still struggling. A lot of anger, a lot of resentment, and a lot of sadness filled out hearts. On the same token, a lot of prayer surrounded us. We knew we would be parents to a rainbow baby somehow and someday.

I discovered I was pregnant last week around 3w3d. The line was so faint, I wasn’t sure if I was looking at what I was looking at. I test again the following Friday morning with first morning urine (FMU) and again, another faint line. I figured I was seeing things and that my period would come. (This is how I was prepared for my period: I bought beer, wine, maxi pads, and disposable heating pads over the weekend).

I woke up Monday morning – the day of my expected period – and found I was pregnant. I even tested with four different brands to make sure there wasn’t a mistake. But the┬ádigital┬áreading was all the hardcore evidence I needed. Now I’m just taking it easy, enjoying the pregnancy until my first prenatal appointment on – get this – April’s Fool Day.

I would be lying if I said I wasn’t a little nervous and apprehensive. I’ve had an early loss and a late loss. I don’t think I’ll be completely comfortable with this pregnancy until the baby is at home in my arms. However, I’m more confident about this pregnancy than my last ones. I don’t know why I am, I just am.

This blog is going to be a journey of my ups and downs, my highs and lows.